My entire life I have found myself paralyzed and wavering when it came to making decisions. I came across another decision in my life and found myself once again going back and forth and stressed.
I’ve been here multiple times in my life and have always found myself getting extremely frustrated with God. I wanted to know His will in the situation and felt He was being silent. I asked Him continuously, “God, please show me your will. What should I do?” I would then write the pros and cons, ask a couple of friends for their advice, and then constantly go back and forth on my decision. It was exhausting and still is!
“I really don’t know what to do! I’ve written out all the pros and cons and am still unsure if I’m making the right decision. I just don’t want to make a mistake.”
“I want to apply for this job, but what if I don’t like it? Maybe I should just stay where I am now. At least it’s stable, right?”
“I’m tired of trying to figure this out. Every time I visit a different doctor they put me on something new and it’s been horrible. I just want this to go away.”
We’ve all been there. Wondering what to do. Wondering what next step we should take. Wondering when God will come through for us and make our paths straight and easy.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.”
One day, I found myself watching the movie “Interview with God” on Netflix. I immediately thought it was intriguing because I would love to have an interview with God. However, as I watched the movie, I started wondering, “What exactly would I even ask God?” Would I be too nervous to say anything because He knows my thoughts? Would I be concerned about my unanswered questions or more so in awe of the fact that I’m sitting with God and be speechless?
One of the scenes that stood out to me the most was when the main character asked God about God’s will and Free will. I thought God’s (the character playing God) response was interesting. He said…
“If everyone waited on me to tell them my will before they did anything, then they would be at a halt and wake up every day wondering whether they should brush their teeth vertically or horizontally. Every choice you make has a consequence, but in the midst of your free will you meet my will.”
At first; this puzzled me. I found myself reading the Bible the rest of the night and woke up still wondering what I should do about my situation. I then was taken back by this scripture during my morning devotional time:
“Nathan replied to the king, “Whatever you have in mind, go ahead and do it, for the Lord is with you.” 2 Samuel 7:3
God immediately revealed to me, “You are wavering because you are scared. Scared of the journey. Scared of suffering. Scared of the unknown.” I was trying to make the perfect decision to avoid suffering and pain. I then realized what the scene was suggesting. It’s not about always knowing what to do. It’s not about knowing each step to take and every door you will open during the journey. It’s not about making the “right” decision, besides ensuring it’s not a sinful one, in each situation. No. It’s about making a decision and trusting He is with us.
“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10
He isn’t going to tell you every step. He isn’t going to control your every move and tell you exactly what to do every second of the day. You are not a puppet. But, what He will do. Give you wisdom. Give you guidance. Give you the courage to make a decision and comfort you every step of the way.
I am unsure what decision has you paralyzed. I am unsure what choice has your mind wavered. But, I do know that whatever you do; He is going to be with you every step of the way.
It isn’t about you arriving to your destination, but about Him coming along with you in the journey. Learning more about Him. Learning to trust Him no matter what happens.
It may be hard. Know He’s there.
It may be rough. Know He’s there.
There may be some suffering. He’s still there.
Remember, God won’t allow anything to destroy you or overtake you. Even in death; you still win because you are reunited with your Father. Ultimately; that’s what it’s all about.
Being with your Father.
He Is With You.
You will always be okay.
Chloe M. Gooden
I just happened to be on Instagram and decided to click the link for your site and I must say that I’m so glad I did. I have been struggling with making a personal decision in my life and I have been asking God to give me the steps to do so for a few years now. I needed this so much because it makes perfect sense now on why I’m still waiting because He wants me to trust him and know that He’s got this and me throughout the process. Thank you for sharing this revelation!!! Amazing work woman of God!!!
Tulessa that is so awesome!!!! I am really glad God used what He showed me to help you. That’s what it is all about! God is with you hun. Trust Him along the way.
Share with anyone you think it will help as well!
Hi Chloe,
Thank you so much for this blog post. It’s really has lefted my sprites and I learnt so much form it. Fear is my biggest blocker from me going after what I want. But the scripture 2 Samuel 7:3 that was an eye opener thank you ?
Definitely was an eye opener for me too! Glad it helped you hun. God Bless ❤️?
This was right on time. I just posted the Proverbs scripture literally minutes, before i read this post. This blog helped me so much, my daily prayer has been order my steps, and for him to reveal things to me. Im literally in tears thank you!
You are more than welcome Melody! I know how hard it can be not knowing what to do. He is with you. Trust the wisdom He has given you and just make a decision. No matter what, he is right along side you darling! =)
This is awesome, and so appropriate for me at this time! Thank you and God bless you!
You are very welcome! Glad it was able to help you!! ❤️?